Listening tO: dun teLL me u LOve me -the cOrrs
feeLn: LOneLy...terribLy..

yesterday was Lyk reaLLy bad...i was so affected by wOt she did...at first i was Lyk sO depressed n aLL...but then again i grew mad...as much as i tried tO keep my cOOL...i cLdn't... wOt was her mOtive Of denying dat she has frenster wen i asked her a reaL LOng tym agO?....den y suddenLy teLLs me dat she wants me tO add her in frenster...den fishes me Out n says dat she wanna see my pic...den wen i asked fOr hers...sent me a whOLe LOad Of pics Of her n him knOwing dat he has a past wif me?.... i reaLi din wanna tink dat bad Of her but shez making it reaL hard fOr me...i nOe dat he preferred her den me..true...she wins... yes..but stiLL...y dOz pics?...sumtymz...peepz Often take it fOr granted Of hOw much sensitive anOther persOn's heart is dat she fOrgets hOw painfuL it is tO be unwanted n dejected...

yesterday...he asked me...hOw far has Our reLatiOnship gOne tO...wer is it Leading.. nOt his fauLt but i juz had tO break dOwn... cOz i dunnO hOw tO answer him... as i've mentiOned b4... i dun wanna be stepping intO anOther reLatiOnship juz fOr the wrOng reasOns.. he tOLd me da same tOO... i'm gLad.. itz juz sad thinking dat if tingz dun werk Out fOr him n me... if anOther persOn comes aLOng.... if the age gap becOmes a barrier... if being wif each Other makes Others Laff at us... if being wif me makes him feeL awkward wif hOw the sOciety LOOks at me... sO many ifs..... sO LiL answers.... i'm nOt tryn tO gain much sympathy by cOmpLaining dat itz hard being me... itz juz dat sumtymz... nO matter hOw hard it is tO resist...i juz can't heLp wOndering n thinking....hOw easy n wOnderfuL Life wLd be being juz an Ordinary persOn... true enuff even the Life Of an Ordinary persOn has itz ups n dOwns... but...as humans...we tend tO neva feeL enuff in Life....

juz One ting fOr my dear baby.... if ur heart dOesn't teLL u anythg abt hOw u feeL... dOesn't dat teLL u sumthg abt wOt u've been tryn tO hear frOm ur heart?....empty feeLns fOr the Other party... sad it may seem... emO it may sOund... but hearts dun Lie...miss u stiLL....*muiackz*


LOst in abyss's darkside uncovered at 8:04 PM