Listening tO: hakim n nabiLa nOn-stOp chattering!!...dun dey ever get tired?
feeLn: sickLy....

i'm sO weak...din get tO sLeep diz few nytez...been sick...my ass hurtz...juz On mOnday mOrning...mOm sent me tO A&E at NUH...but by the tym we get der, the pain was very minimaL...sO the dOc sent me hOme n gaf sOme medicine...which hardLy werked...in da end hidaya gOt sOme frOm her ward...sO the pain was Lyk nOn-existence in daytym...OnLy night tym den pain starts back again..weird..pOOr mOm...she stayed awake whOLe Of yesterday n tOOk care Of me..:( haizzz... den tOday hakim n nabiLa were Lyk sO cLdn't get aLOng... i hate it...itz Lyk dejavu...juz abt Last yr...same tym of the yr...i had tO tk cr Of dem...bLa..bLa..bLa... itz juz sO tiring... i mean dey r sO nOt my respOnsibiLity... i LOve dem yes.. but am i respOnsibLe fOr dem the whOLe tym? nO...dey haf der Own mOms.... Once in a whiLe i dO LOve tO vOLunteer n babysit dem...but dat sO dOesn't make dem my part tym werk... i'm tired...sick...aching in da middLe Of da nyt...but nO One knOws except fOr mOm n dad.... pLus my sisters.. but stiLL... der wOrries fOr my pain is nuthn tO cOmpared tO mOm's..

i dunnO wOtz wrOng wif my hip...i juz hOpe dat itz nuthn dat bad...i knOw at certain pOint itz seriOus (OnLy cOz it affects the way i sLeep n waLk) ... Other den dat...i dun tink itz dat major untiL it'LL cause me tO haf an Op... but itz reaLLy feeLs gOOd tO be warded...cOz den i'LL haf nO wOrries at hOme...fOr Once... nO chiLdren... nO cOOking tO be dOne..but then again... my conscience wun Leave me in peace... i wOrry tO much abt the peepz ard me... i wOrry abt each n everyOne's weLL being...Lyk wOt if i dun cOOk... dey'LL be hungry... den mOm wiLL haf tO dO the cOOkin...n dat wiLL cause her pain... tO her Leg n spine... den whO wiLL tk cr Of the kids... mOm again...but den if the kids r nOt ard here...wer wLd dey be?... the Other side Of the famiLy?.. yeah...as if dey wanna heLp n tk cr Of dem... *pOutz* .... i'm sO very tired...i need sOme space fOr myseLf...fOr my studies... i'm sO gOing nO wer wif diz everyday tasks which now seems Lyk sOme mandatOry respOnsibiLities....

sOmeOne pLz rescue me n my mOm n dad...itz nOt dat we r suffering...we aren't...but Life certainLy wLd be easier (aLthO nOt cOmpLeted!!) if each One takes care Of his/her Own respOnsibiLities... n fOr Once.. i wLd be taking care Of my Own respOnsibiLity tO fuLfiL my educatiOn jOurney.... i can't juz be satisfied n prOud Of my achievement Of gOing tO a weLL knOwn sec skOOL which was based On my PSLE results!!..dat was sO dOnkey yrs agO!..i need tO feeL gOOd abt myseLf again!!..been a reaL LOng tym.. tOO LOng....

he wrOte:
I missed ya today. i really did. i wished you were there with me at the gig. i wished you were there to see how good i can mosh. hehe. and see me all sweaty and breathless. i wished you were there with me when i was enjoying watching My Precious and enjoy the good music that i like a lot. i wished you were there with me when we were eating. i wished you were there with me when we were watching the jamming session. i wished you were there with me in the train. i wished you were with me. i missed ya..
*muiackss..*

..cLd anyOne miz sumOne sO badLy?... weLL...i did...n nOw it feeLs nice tO haf sumOme missing me as much.... but again...i wLdn't pin On tOO much hOpe On dat...i dun wanna be starting tO fLy n den Once the sun shines up high...my wings wLd meLt...den i'LL cOme crashing dOwn...reaL bad...

muiackz zaza!!!

LOst in abyss's darkside uncovered at 6:51 PM