Listening tO: seperti yg ku jangka - KRU ft indigO
feeLn: ...regrets...

...wOke up after a shOrt sLeepLess nyt..sLept at 3..wOke up in da wee earLy mOrning... sLept again tiLL 10+..tiLL nOw i've gOt nO mOOd fOr everythg...even bathing seems Lyk a devOir...diz sOng is sO reLevant tO my mOOd nOw...tO wOt i'm feeLn at diz specific mOment in my Life ryte abt nOw....

mOm's nOt back yet...i had she'LL stay der a cOupLe Of dayz mOre..i reaLLy dO...i hOpe she enjOys herseLf..i tink i'm gOnna retreat tO my Own wOrLd Of abyss...Of nuthingness.. did it Once..y nOt again...been der aLL da whiLe...juz haf tO keep teLLing myseLf..derz nO One eLse...nO One eLse matters...nO One eLse gives a shit...except fOr famiLy Of cOz...feeLing vuLnerabLe tOwards everythg has definiteLy put me On tOp Of the hitList Of being tOrn apart sO easiLy..

herez a piece Of my bLOg frOm Last mth..

he wrOte:
I missed ya today. i really did. i wished you were there with me at the gig. i wished you were there to see how good i can mosh. hehe. and see me all sweaty and breathless. i wished you were there with me when i was enjoying watching My Precious and enjoy the good music that i like a lot. i wished you were there with me when we were eating. i wished you were there with me when we were watching the jamming session. i wished you were there with me in the train. i wished you were with me. i missed ya..
*muiackss..*

..cLd anyOne miz sumOne sO badLy?... weLL...i did...n nOw it feeLs nice tO haf sumOme missing me as much.... but again...i wLdn't pin On tOO much hOpe On dat...i dun wanna be starting tO fLy n den Once the sun shines up high...my wings wLd meLt...den i'LL cOme crashing dOwn...reaL bad...

n nOw i knew y i din wanna start sOaring..y can't i fOLLOw my instincts...i've sOared.. nOw i'm crashing Once again..

i can be der fOr u tmrw..the day after...n the days dat fOLLOw...but can u swaLLOw ur pride n dO da same fOr me...waLk by my side...fOLLOw my dreams..

...n sO it shaLL be...

LOst in abyss's darkside uncovered at 12:14 PM