Listening tO: my immOrtaL -evanescence
feeLn: crappy
 
Ok...sO...wOt haf i been up tO....fri went tO meet up wif amOi n Lin...been awhiLe since i Last saw amOi cOz shez aLwayz bz fLying here n der... gettn prettier by the day!... darn!... ahakz... but shez LOsing weight...but as she'LL aLwayz cLaim..."i'm sO fat nOw!"....hmmm...*pOutz*... erm.. wanna see whO has mOre babat?!...*hOLds up thick Layer Of tummy fats*.... der u gO!... sO we spend the evening eating at Lau pa sat (dat seems tO be the OnLy pasttime i seem tO haf ryte nOw...EATING!) ....ate ikan bakar....ju ju... kangkOng.. satay... n had LOts Of maLbOrO menthOL Lights... *gLeams*... ahakz...yeah... practicaLLy the whOLe tabLe was fagging away... sO ahakz...bijik can Later wif nan... tOO bad i cLdn't stay Out LOng... the usuaL...curfew... sumtymz itz a drag...Others itz a bLiss... which eva way i LOOk at it...ryte nOw...i tink itz a bLiss... given dat i dO haf curfews...it makes me mOre stringent On the ruLes dat r being Laid..
 
sO Ok..harpz party is On the 9th Of aug... at sentOsa...Of aLL pLaces!...sO freakn far away... (suddenLy i'm thinking dat curfews r such drags!) ...menu fOr da day is gOnna be LOts Of indian hunks!!!... n tOns Of bOOze!!... ahakz... sO anywayz... we'LL see hOw... suppOsed tO meet up wif naz n her after the 26th... i'LL get my aLLOwance...she'LL get her paycheck...
 
i din gO tO skOOL On sat n tOday...practicaLLy cOz i've nO mOney...n i can't mum dat...cOz she juz gaf me 50 bucks On wed...but i spend it aLL away... 50 bucks means aLOt tO me.. cOz i dun reaLLy ask mOney frOm my parents...if dey gif...i'LL juz take...but i wun ask fOr mOre... *pOutz*... niewayz...
 
been feeLn Like my heartz been sLiced wif a knife.. yeah...itz aching...cOz as usuaL... been thinking Of him tOO much ... i can't heLp it... i hate being sO vuLnerabLe Like diz... tOLd myseLf dat i wun get tOO invOLved wif him back den....but i cLdn't heLp it... ergh!!!... but it was sO hard nOt tO faLL... wif the way we were gettn cLOse...mebbe it was juz aLL in my senseLess state Of mind dat i tOt he was feeLn da same way...apparentLy he wasn't... n i'm stuck wif diz feeLn dat wun seem tO gO away... everytym i'm tryn tO fOcus On sumthg eLse.. Or Lyk i tOt i was Over... hez der... *pOutz*.... haizzz.... diz heart Of mine juz sux!!!.... i'm hurting n it wun even care dat i am cOz it wun stOp missing him!!!...my Own heart is against me.......
 
Ok...the Last part Of my entry up der is sO dramatic....i knOw... but i juz can't heLp it... i juz miss him tOO freakn much!!!!.. geramnyer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *runs Off tO the tOiLet tO stuff her head in da bOwL*




LOst in abyss's darkside uncovered at 9:51 PM