Listening tO: jesLina hashim
feeLn: restLess in my heart

itz been a great whiLe...sO many things have happened...sO LiL tO teLL...grandma passed away after 14 days being warded in the hOspitaL...i spent 12 nytz sLeeping On d make-dO bed frOm d sOfa at d LOunge Of the cgh icu....it was a tOugh 3 weeks...back tO back after heikeL's (my neighbOur) granma passed away...den it was mine.. thO i knew dat spending 12 sLeepLess nytz der wLd neva redeem mOst Of my wrOngdoings tOwards her, i juz hOpe dat at Least sumway, she knew we were...i was...der fOr her tiLL her demise...if OnLy we knew Of hOw much they had abused her...i'm sure she wLdn't haf been any much LOnger being in dat situatiOn...but i'm gLad dat she had been in Our care fOr at Least 8 mths b4 she passed away...

sumhOw as we aLways put it, in every mishap Or sad situatiOn, der wLd Owez be sumthg gd Out Of it... my aunts frOm my maternaL side came dOwn tO pay their respects after aLmOst 3 yrs Of spending their tym away frOm having any reLatiOn ties wif my mum...it was emOtiOnaL..sOmbre...but sumhOw happy...

switcheekz has gOne Of fOr umrah...2 weeks at Least..i juz wish him aLL d best in dOing his umrah...hOpefuLLy it'LL be accepted by Allah...insya'Allah... i hOwever did mentiOn it tO him dat hOpefuLLy wen he cOmes back. he wLd be a better persOn...tO himseLf...tO his gf...tO everyOne eLse...even if it means dat by being a better bf, he wLd haf tO say gdbye tO aLOt Of peepz...dat wLd ObviOusLy incLude me...i am ready fOr dat tO happen.. but everytym i tried tO distance myseLf myseLf frOm him, eventuaLLy i'LL cOme back...i hOpe diz tym wen he cOmes back, he wiLL be a better haLf tO her...insya'Allah... mebbe itz tym tO spend sOme tym aLOne again...afteraLL...dat shLd be my fOrte....

LOst in abyss's darkside uncovered at 4:48 PM